Not again...

No. Not this nihilistic delusion again!

Suddenly I feel empty, like some amount of anti-matters being blown up in one portion of the soul.

I lost my passions, my dreams, even my core desires.

Seconds, minutes, hours passed. Candy by candy melted. Not any of my chains of thought appears, so neither good nor bad exist in this intersection point of time and place.

Where am I?

Who am I?

Wh   o      a    m         I     ?

"... my head reel. I feel quite giddy."
-Lupin's cynical letter to Holmes. THE JEWISH LAMP, Maurice Leblanc

The expression above must be the case for Earth creatures - for I feel nothing. A total emptiness. No depression, no anger, no complaining. Just an undefined unhappiness: "I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!"

After the spirit-rising in the last two days, suddenly everything's vanished. Woosh-gone!

It can't be from out of nothing - must have a cause and I have been trying to figure it out. But this superintensed answer-searching activity again corrupted my time for working on college assignments. I can't do anything with my brain & heart empty!

Got the solution 70% at 15.00. Thanks to the Owner of the Labyrinth.

The rest 30%? Sait-on jamais.

And my giant college assignment? Sait-on jamais.